I never got to write a single word of me leaving Heidelberg back in the last days of July, nor a word about my feelings on coming back home the very 1st August. Maybe it was due to having too much in my mind and too much looking forward to. Now, however, I have settled down again, and I am ready to put my feelings down into words.
I left for Heidelberg fleeing from something I didn’t quite know. I wasn’t fully ‘recovered’ from the sad state in which left me the end of the Saarbücken-year and I hadn’t managed to be happy with myself again. I felt guilty because of it, because I had no reason at all not to be happy, but I just wasn’t. I felt like a child who had been given her favourite toy and then it had been taken away.Taking shelter in the excuse of taking courses to improve my German and to get closer to the end of my degree, I decided to apply for the free place that was left for Heidelberg in April 2009. Five months later, I got there. Now, I know what I fled from was myself and I can assure now that I have found myself again. Not alone, that’s for sure. Alone you reach nothing and nowhere. There have been many people who have helped me, so it is my moment now to aknowledge them.
First of all, what I want to thank, once again, is the year I spent in Saarbücken. No Saarbücken, would have meant no Heidelberg.
Second, I want to thank everything and everyone that made possible me being there. Not being you, would have meant no Heidelberg.
Third, I want to thank everything that made Heidelberg a year worth living. Without it, would have meant no Heidelberg.
Fourth, I want to thank everyone that made Heidelberg exist. Heidelberg means to me faces, moments and feelings. Without you, Heidelberg would have never, never existed.
So here you are…
ECT stands for many, many people I will not write down but that have somehow, somewhen and somewhere shared something with me in between September 2009 and July 2010.
Thank you for helping me be who I am now.
I forgot something… Thank you, Heidelberg.
[Right now sounds: Just Like Honey – Jesus and Mary Chain]
Un petó molt gran,
Laura, die Dolmetscherin